Catastrophic!! Intoxicating, harsh, full of despair. The most rejuvenating reading for demanding book lovers. An extremely genuine book about human nature and its dark side, the one that doesn't hesitate to wallow in filth after forgiveness. Many will characterize it as a miserable and depressing book. But in the end, is the truth depressing or simply do we not dare to look at it head-on? After all, haven't we all thought about all these things that Selin tells us and simply haven't said them out loud because we're afraid of how we'll look to others? I won't deal with the author's Nazi past. The Journey into the Night is a book that everyone should read. Cynical but shockingly true.
The worst of all is that you wonder how you'll find the strength the next day to continue doing the things you've been doing for so long, how you'll find the strength for those pointless steps, the countless plans that lead nowhere, the attempts to escape the oppressive need, attempts that always fail, and all of them to convince yourself once again that fate is inescapable, that you have to crash into the roots of the wall every night in the agony of that tomorrow, more and more uncertain, more and more miserable.
One fine day, you decide to talk less and less about your favorite things. You talk with effort whenever you're forced to. You're tired of hearing yourself talk... You abbreviate... You refrain. Thirty years go by that you've been talking. It no longer matters to you to be right. You lose the will to hold onto even the toy you've secured among the pleasures... You silence yourself. Now it's enough to eat a little, to ensure a little warmth, and to sleep as much as possible, on the path of nothing. It would be necessary to rekindle your interest, to invent new tricks for others. But you no longer have the strength to change the repertoire. You're dragging. You're still looking for blame and justifications to stay there with the dear ones, but death is also there, beside you, heavy, all the time now, less mysterious and like a card game. The only precious thing left to you is the small sorrows, the fact that you didn't find the time to visit your old uncle while he was alive... What you've preserved from life. This little terrifying print, all the other things you knew a little too much on the way, with a lot of effort and pain. You're no longer anything but an old lantern of memories in the corner of some street where hardly anyone passes anymore.
The young are always in such a hurry to make love. They rush so much to spill that powder they sell for entertainment, which doesn't bother them much with emotions. They're a bit like the travelers who eat what they're served in the dining car, between two whistles of the train. It's enough to serve them a couple of lines from those that adorn the registry office for marriage, and to congratulate them. The young find it with something, let alone they pour out the truth as they please. The kids end up in the wonderful pool, on the beach where the women finally seem free, where they're so beautiful that they don't even need the lie of our dreams. So once winter comes, it's difficult for us to return, to say that it's over, to admit it. We would like to stay, despite everything, in the cold in the sheets, still hoping. Understandable. We're useless. No one is to blame for that. To spill and to be happy, above all. And then when we start to hide from others, it's a sign that we're afraid to go crazy with them. This is an illness in itself. It would be good to know why we insist on not being cured of loneliness.