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... maybe in some other world things would’ve been different, but here and now, in this one, Reef huddled down into his chair by the fire, the noise from the saloon downstairs where he’d been playing cards all night reaching his ears but hardly bothering him, though he did for a second think of the scum sitting down there playing on, never giving in, because why give in? why be cautious? you miss all the shots you never take anyhow. Maybe there’s a point to it.
Reef took up his book and looked at it. Big-ass motherfucker. Maybe it’d be better to go back to the Chums series. . . but hay-ull, he might as well try it. He’d done all the Chums books he had been carrying with him in any case, so it was time to move on to something different. And now that his nightly reading functioned more as a sort of gloomy serenade to his dead father than anything else it seemed reading material was inconsequential. It wasn't even for pleasure anymore, because it was fun or anything: it was like Webb was sitting right there next to him, could hear every word he was saying, even judging him: “why ain’t you out there blowin up railroads, son? you ain’t even got them yet, have you?”
Over the next two months, Reef read, or rather serenaded, to his dead father, and the more he read the more he sensed Webb’s presence in the room, and not spiritually either, but genuinely, really there, Reef feeling more and more strangled, even oppressed, as if his father’s ghost had him in a chokehold.
Upon finally finishing the book, Reef, with some struggle, took a deep breath, halfway into which he began coughing violently, as if a mosquito had flown straight down his throat (hell, maybe one did). He fell to his knees on the wooden floor, coughed some more, and after that one last liberating cough, there he stood, right in front of him: that wasn’t no ghost, that was his father.
“Pa, shit. You can’t just do that. Kit told me once about how you can’t just reassemble…”
“Listen, son, I ain’t got all day. Capitalists in heaven too… sure, they ain’t got railroads, but believe me, they got some mighty fine things you can blow up.”
“Well, Pa, you wanna know how Ma’s doin’ and the rest…?”
“Naw, son. I just want to know what the ha-yull this book's trying to say. You read me them Chums books and they were entertaining, sure, but what in the actual ha-yull this book is about?”
“Well, Pa, it’s about 1200 pages…”
“Don’t be a smartass, son. I din’t raise no smartass like that. I just can’t wrap my head around this book, ‘sall. Just give it to me quick and I’ll be on my way and give you some peace, alright? I trust you’ll get them two bastards eventually anyway, son.”
Reef thought for a second, not really knowing how to summarise the book. In fact, it seemed damn-near impossible.
“Alright, Pa. Well, shit. I hardly know where to begin. There’s a lot of weird stuff in here that is real funny though: do you remember Skip, the conscious ball lightning, Pa? Or Thorvald, the sentient tornado? And do you remember that fella who thought he was an actual Berliner, living in an actual konditorei as a Berliner?”
“Yeah, son, that was funny alright.”
“Yeah, and the themes, Pa… It seems to me to be about dualities of nature, and things colliding… maybe most prominently with anarchism and capitalism. Order and chaos... There’s a whole lot of stuff about math too, the Riemann hypothesis… stuff I’m sure Kit would love.”
“Didn’t understand nothin’ of that math stuff.”
“Neither did I, Pa. There’s some stuff about time travel too, ain’t there? Finding Shambhala, the whole Buddhist thing… there seems to be something about never reaching that world we want, never bein' able to get there… Damn, Pa, I don’t know. It’s stuffed with themes. I think you can read into it whatever you like. It’s art, Pa, ain’t it?”
“Damn straight it’s art, Son. And art’s important for us trying to transcend the boundaries of the everyday world. Blowin' shit up is one way, art another. You remember that. Just testin’ you. I gotta get back up there now, blow some shit up again… you find those two bastards.”
“Alright, Pa. I will. Nice seein’ you again.”
And with that Webb disappeared. The oppressive air gone, Reef breathing freely again for the first time in two months, feeling relaxed, having finished this mammoth of a book and the constraint on his throat alleviated, no longer feeling like he was living in a stultified world, or rather he was at least aware that he was, he was free to do what he did best. He went out the door, down the stairs and out of the saloon, dynamite in his backpack, the sun gleaming down onto his face, ready to get back to business again – ready to blow shit up, like the Kieselguhr kid.
Reef took up his book and looked at it. Big-ass motherfucker. Maybe it’d be better to go back to the Chums series. . . but hay-ull, he might as well try it. He’d done all the Chums books he had been carrying with him in any case, so it was time to move on to something different. And now that his nightly reading functioned more as a sort of gloomy serenade to his dead father than anything else it seemed reading material was inconsequential. It wasn't even for pleasure anymore, because it was fun or anything: it was like Webb was sitting right there next to him, could hear every word he was saying, even judging him: “why ain’t you out there blowin up railroads, son? you ain’t even got them yet, have you?”
Over the next two months, Reef read, or rather serenaded, to his dead father, and the more he read the more he sensed Webb’s presence in the room, and not spiritually either, but genuinely, really there, Reef feeling more and more strangled, even oppressed, as if his father’s ghost had him in a chokehold.
Upon finally finishing the book, Reef, with some struggle, took a deep breath, halfway into which he began coughing violently, as if a mosquito had flown straight down his throat (hell, maybe one did). He fell to his knees on the wooden floor, coughed some more, and after that one last liberating cough, there he stood, right in front of him: that wasn’t no ghost, that was his father.
“Pa, shit. You can’t just do that. Kit told me once about how you can’t just reassemble…”
“Listen, son, I ain’t got all day. Capitalists in heaven too… sure, they ain’t got railroads, but believe me, they got some mighty fine things you can blow up.”
“Well, Pa, you wanna know how Ma’s doin’ and the rest…?”
“Naw, son. I just want to know what the ha-yull this book's trying to say. You read me them Chums books and they were entertaining, sure, but what in the actual ha-yull this book is about?”
“Well, Pa, it’s about 1200 pages…”
“Don’t be a smartass, son. I din’t raise no smartass like that. I just can’t wrap my head around this book, ‘sall. Just give it to me quick and I’ll be on my way and give you some peace, alright? I trust you’ll get them two bastards eventually anyway, son.”
Reef thought for a second, not really knowing how to summarise the book. In fact, it seemed damn-near impossible.
“Alright, Pa. Well, shit. I hardly know where to begin. There’s a lot of weird stuff in here that is real funny though: do you remember Skip, the conscious ball lightning, Pa? Or Thorvald, the sentient tornado? And do you remember that fella who thought he was an actual Berliner, living in an actual konditorei as a Berliner?”
“Yeah, son, that was funny alright.”
“Yeah, and the themes, Pa… It seems to me to be about dualities of nature, and things colliding… maybe most prominently with anarchism and capitalism. Order and chaos... There’s a whole lot of stuff about math too, the Riemann hypothesis… stuff I’m sure Kit would love.”
“Didn’t understand nothin’ of that math stuff.”
“Neither did I, Pa. There’s some stuff about time travel too, ain’t there? Finding Shambhala, the whole Buddhist thing… there seems to be something about never reaching that world we want, never bein' able to get there… Damn, Pa, I don’t know. It’s stuffed with themes. I think you can read into it whatever you like. It’s art, Pa, ain’t it?”
“Damn straight it’s art, Son. And art’s important for us trying to transcend the boundaries of the everyday world. Blowin' shit up is one way, art another. You remember that. Just testin’ you. I gotta get back up there now, blow some shit up again… you find those two bastards.”
“Alright, Pa. I will. Nice seein’ you again.”
And with that Webb disappeared. The oppressive air gone, Reef breathing freely again for the first time in two months, feeling relaxed, having finished this mammoth of a book and the constraint on his throat alleviated, no longer feeling like he was living in a stultified world, or rather he was at least aware that he was, he was free to do what he did best. He went out the door, down the stairs and out of the saloon, dynamite in his backpack, the sun gleaming down onto his face, ready to get back to business again – ready to blow shit up, like the Kieselguhr kid.