Is it okay?
+How?
-I see you've really thought about it. I've never seen you think like this before!
+Well, I've always been thinking throughout my life. Were you blind?
-I've never seen this state of your thinking before. What has changed in the middle?
+The difference is that before, I used to think about others and everything related to others (such as having better eyesight, a higher income, a more luxurious life, a better car, an elevator upgrade, what others say, etc.); but now I'm thinking about myself.
-I told you you've become something :(
+No, did you expect that my mental state when I'm thinking about myself and my life would be the same as my other thinking states? Saying "yourself" and saying "others"
-No, dad, don't forget to teach me the lesson of thinking and distinguishing between yourself and others now. I know better than anyone else how you symbolized your life and reached this point.
+Yes, don't say that, you're not in my place and you don't understand that when you understand the bottom line and then you're going to die in a few days, what does it mean?
I see a mountain of "not becomings" that never reached the stage of "becomings".
A mountain of sadness, regret, and grief for lost opportunities and moments.
The conditions are difficult.
-Why are you thinking about it now? Why?
+Because...
-Huh? I didn't understand. Wait a minute. Why when sadness and regret were a mountain and you didn't reach the stage of giving birth to it, now in old age it becomes a mountain?
Remember the self-created mountain, remember the poem of Nasir Khusraw. You used to be able to think well.
+It took time. First, learn not to interrupt me in the middle of my speech.
Also, in these difficult mental conditions, your advice doesn't help me.
-No, actually before, your memory helped me a lot.
If you had the memory that it's not like this now.
Just the knowledge of "He said: We do not know what is from us and what is on us."
+Well, if your lecture is over, I'll go and start implementing some of my wishes and spending the last moments of my life.
-No, no, wait a minute. For me, the question is why do you people, when you understand that you're going to die soon, rush to implement your wishes, but before that, the most important part of your thoughts is always about "others"? For example, do such and such a thing, what will others say? Wear such and such a thing because I like it, no, no, if I wear it, what will people say?
Buy such and such a house, but I have to work a lot, is it worth it? Yes, yes, because people will say good things about me at that time, so.....
+I don't know. Look, we people don't know what we want ourselves, we don't understand. But I feel that death gives this power of understanding back again, it brings the taste of experiencing life back to us, it helps us to live at least a few days without paying attention to money and related problems, and at least when we die, we can say to that world: Aargh, I lived a real life for three seconds out of the millions of seconds that I put my foot on the dusty ground, and we can celebrate ourselves with it.
We must say that our dear inner voice also wants us to live for a few days, be happy, without paying attention to many things, but in a safe condition. I admit that many times we do very little ourselves, but really some wishes and implementing them require having stable conditions. So, with the utmost respect to you, dear inner voice, when you don't put yourself in someone else's place, don't put all this "me, me" in the way and let's enjoy the last breath of death.
In the end, we must say:
This is like all the stories of life, marriages, children, divorces, unhappiness, surroundings, and the sensitive old age of each person that you can imagine. Because although this story had a personality, we could replace each person with it. Do you know why? Because its end was death! Success in death is guaranteed. Death, without any kind of difference, embraces everyone. Fortunately, some of them with a wider and warmer embrace :)
I read somewhere that "we adults are a set of suppressed inner promises and desires."
So it's not surprising that a person in the last moments of his life wants to deal with himself a little so that the burden of sorrow is at least a little lighter. After all, he has a long way ahead and the power and ability of youth that he doesn't have. He is now an old man with a burden of thoughts, not becomings, and multiple sorrows on the road to death, moving forward.
And life says: "But still, one must live."
“Old age is not a battle, it is a general killing.”\\nThere is no doubt that one day that event will occur. «إِذَا وَقَعَتِ الْوَاقِعَةُ»
Human beings age in a certain way, and their choices accompany them forever. One must strive hard to open one's hungry mind from looking at the past. Aging is an inevitable process that every human experiences. As we grow older, our bodies and minds change, and the choices we make along the way have a significant impact on our lives. We often tend to look back at the past with regret or nostalgia, but it is important to learn from our experiences and move forward. By keeping an open and hungry mind, we can continue to learn and grow, regardless of our age. We should embrace the changes that come with aging and make choices that will lead us to a fulfilling and meaningful life.