Kaikkien päiväkirjojen final boss

The final boss of all diaries is a mysterious and challenging entity. It represents the ultimate test for the writer.

Reaching this stage requires dedication and perseverance. The writer has likely poured their heart and soul into their diary entries, documenting their thoughts, feelings, and experiences.

As they approach the final boss, they may feel a mix of excitement and nervousness. What lies ahead? Will they be able to overcome this final obstacle and complete their diary with a sense of satisfaction?

The final boss could take many forms. It might be a complex emotion that the writer has been struggling to express, or a significant event that has had a profound impact on their life.

Whatever it is, the writer must face it head-on and find a way to conquer it. This could involve digging deep within themselves, exploring their innermost thoughts and emotions, and using their writing skills to bring clarity and understanding to the situation.

In the end, defeating the final boss of all diaries is a rewarding experience. It allows the writer to look back on their journey and see how far they have come. It also provides a sense of closure and a feeling of accomplishment.

So, if you're a writer facing the final boss of your diary, don't be afraid. Embrace the challenge and use it as an opportunity to grow and learn. You never know what amazing things you might discover along the way.

I simply can't get enough of her. She is such an incredibly complex woman. I identify deeply with so much of her intellect, her insatiable hunger for love, and her powerfully erotic self. With every page I turn, I uncover something else that seems to apply so perfectly to my life in this very moment, to my relationships, and it truly scares me. Reading her diaries is an intensely personal experience for me.

Later edit: I hold very strong opinions about what a woman should be like, and I am constantly striving to live up to those ideals. It's not just a way in which I think the "world" should exist, but rather a way in which I yearn to live my own life. Anais is part of one of my all-time favorite literary power-couples (Henry-Anais, Heidegger-Hannah), and I identify wholeheartedly with her passion for her relationship and the strength of her own emotions. I understand how she feels so desperately torn between her sensitive heart and her concrete-like intellect. I have fallen in love with her while reading about what she has written regarding sex - how she discovered it and what it meant for her to be a powerfully erotic woman, more like an animal following its instincts and instilling death-bearing passions in the men of her life. I discovered her when I was 18, and I firmly believe that was precisely on time, as it provided me with profound insights into who I wanted to become.

Her diaries reveal a very strong and intelligent woman, yet they also show that she was emotionally vulnerable, dependent on men, desiring power and dominance outwardly, while secretly grappling with being sexually submissive. That is an extremely fine line to walk - and it requires a great deal of introspection to be able to never blend the two. I am not merely reading her diaries - I am meticulously studying them. You can lead a much better life if you are able to understand the mistakes of someone who was talented enough to document them on paper.

At the conclusion of the book, Nin contemplates something along the lines of whether she, Henry, and June are merely three colossal egos engaged in a battle for supremacy. While this may be an oversimplification, my exasperation with this book and her as a character within it was so profound that I am inclined to assert, "Yes, that's precisely it, well done Anaïs!"

After all, it is a diary, and perhaps I shouldn't gripe too much. However, her frequent vacillations of emotion every ten pages, only to end up with the same sentiments she had prior to commencing her self-questioning, truly drove me to the brink of madness. I had the impression that everyone in this book should simply engage in one enormous, all-day orgy and expel all those pent-up feelings from their systems.

It seems as if the constant turmoil and indecision within the pages were both exhausting and frustrating, leaving me with a sense of dissatisfaction and a longing for some sort of resolution or clarity that never quite materialized.

There are satanic joys known only to writers. Anais Nin, in her work, does not fail to confound as she oscillates between the angelic and the diabolical. Through diary excerpts and letters, this book not only weaves together the story of Nin's affair with Henry Miller (and his wife, June) but also delves into her attempt to understand and master her womanhood and the complex dynamics between men and women. This task proves to be increasingly and endlessly intricate.

I find myself rather paralyzed when trying to make sense of this book, which poses countless questions about love, passion, sincerity, and the essential natures of men, women, and their relationships. All of Nin's relationships are captivating and richly intellectualized by her, but Henry's, of course, stands out. With Henry, Nin feels she can become a woman both sexually and emotionally. She also believes that by being the wife of a writer, she can become more of a writer herself. She constantly grapples with and relishes in her simultaneous submission to and mastery of Henry, both the man and the writer. She teaches him about love, and he teaches her about passion. Their relationship constantly dizzies the reader with their simultaneous emptying and filling of each other, as both man and woman and as writers.

My only criticism is perhaps weak as it is based on moralization. I don't condemn Nin for having an affair. She is human, and yes, she can be cruel. However, her intellectualization of her dishonesty to justify it really irks me. Not just morally (I do pity her husband Hugo), but also because it seems naïve, as if she is unaware of her own immaturity regarding her relationships. This immaturity, which she justifies, feels like a betrayal of herself and a failure to admit to both who she is and what she is doing. It is as if, as a writer, she believes she is exempt from that decency, which she herself identifies in Henry: "The writer is clothed in his humanity, but it is only a disguise."

Her failure to inform Hugo of the affair, at least as far as the book reveals, seems unjustifiable to me, whereas the actual affair I feel can be somewhat justified. Not morally or even on the grounds of sheer decency, but because I am inclined to believe that Henry did provide Nin with what she needed as a woman. She writes: "The absolute sincerity of men like Allendy and Hugo is beautiful but uninteresting to me. It does not fascinate me as much as Henry's insincerities, dramatics, literary escapades, experiments, rascalities." And so, Nin becomes a woman. She feels stronger, more confident, more feminine, and less burdened by strain, tension, and fear. This enrichment that Nin gains from Henry's passion and love shows the complexity of human relationships and challenges most people's view of'real love' as essentially passionate, sexual, honest, and committed.

I am inclined to disagree with Nin's ways and argue that commitment is a sacrifice and that people should make sacrifices, practice resistance, and refrain. But for Nin, she has just discovered a world of indulgence, when before she was all about timid rationale. And who's to say Anais Nin's desires are any less moral than the lies we resentfully and defensively call an 'ideal'? "Last night I wept. I wept because the process by which I have become a woman was painful. I wept because I was no longer a child with a child's blind faith. I wept because my eyes were opened to reality—to Henry's selfishness, June's love of power, my insatiable creativity which must concern itself with others and cannot be sufficient to itself. I wept because I could not believe anymore and I love to believe. I can still love passionately without believing. That means I love humanly. I wept because from now on I will weep less. I wept because I have lost my pain and I am not accustomed to its absence."

Anaïs Nin's journals during the time when she was involved in affairs with Henry Miller, his wife June, and several others while being married herself offer a captivating glimpse into her extraordinary life and thought process.

Her experiences were so unique and her perspective so engaging that I couldn't help but be completely enthralled by her words. As I delved deeper into the later parts of her journals, I found myself getting increasingly sucked in with each reading. The outside world would seem to fade away in an instant, and I would be completely immersed in Nin's complex and passionate world.

Moreover, her journals also provide a fascinating humanization of Henry Miller. They show a side of him that might not be as commonly known, adding depth and dimension to his character. Overall, Anaïs Nin's journals from this period are a remarkable and unforgettable read.

Henry and June, Eduardo and Hugo - Anais loves them all.

Her diary offers an incredibly intimate glimpse into her psyche.

Her emotions and affections shift with such rapidity that she seems almost too complex to be a fictional character.

Yet, it is truly fascinating to observe her journey of self-discovery as she and her psychoanalyst strive to make sense of her motivations and character.

The story unfolds like a captivating mystery, with Anais at the center, her heart and mind a tumultuous sea of emotions.

As we read her diary entries, we are drawn into her world, experiencing her loves, her doubts, and her moments of clarity.

It is a journey that challenges our own perceptions of love, identity, and the human condition.

Through her words, we see a woman who is unafraid to explore the depths of her own being, no matter how uncomfortable or revealing it may be.

And in doing so, she invites us to do the same.

Henry and June is a remarkable work that delves into the passionate and complex world of Anais Nin's life.

The unexpurgated diary from 1931 - 1932 offers a raw and intimate look at her relationships and experiences.

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Through her writing, Anais Nin invites us into her inner thoughts and desires, painting a vivid picture of a time filled with love, lust, and self-discovery.

The diary is a testament to the power of words and the courage it takes to share one's most personal and vulnerable moments.

It is a must-read for those interested in exploring the depths of human emotion and the beauty of the written word.

Whether you are a fan of Anais Nin or simply looking for a thought-provoking read, Henry and June is sure to leave a lasting impression.

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My father once told me that the only part of Anais Nin's diaries that he found interesting were the sections about Henry Miller.

My father has more patience than I. I had to stop reading this about eighty pages in because of the overwhelming urge to smack Nin.

She has the ability to look at the world in such a way that every glimpse is newer and shinier than the one before. However, she herself is included in these observations.

Really, I just couldn't take anymore of her adolescent reassurances that she is the greatest thing to happen to the world since, well, Henry Miller.

It seems that Nin's self-absorption and her constant proclamations of her own greatness became too much for me to bear.

While her writing may have some merits in terms of her unique perspective on the world, her excessive self-adoration detracted from the overall reading experience.

I found myself becoming increasingly frustrated with her as I read on, and eventually, I had to put the book down.

Perhaps if she had been more humble and less focused on herself, I would have been able to appreciate her diaries more fully.

But as it stands, I simply couldn't get past her egotistical tendencies.

There is an obsessive sensuality that pervades their writing, a rigor that is captured in just a few seconds by the intense passion of the flesh. There are a few piercing screams, a great deal of paranoia, and a fear that encompasses both success and failure. Failed trips, burned letters that were once drunk with emotion and yet too lucid not to plant a Truth. There is an almost morbid fascination for these two writers, who are discreetly in love with the authors of their time, free from jealousy or envy. There is a mocking and gloomy gaze directed at the censorship of their works.

They were solely motivated by beauty and the sinuosities that lie between sex and the immaterial. This work has the power to make everyone long to pick up their pen once more for a profound correspondence, and to strive again and again to achieve perfection in any vital enterprise, whether it be in the slime of life or in the light.

I am in awe of the writer who can convey such intense emotions with short sentences.

It is truly remarkable how they are able to pack so much power and feeling into concise phrases.

Each sentence seems to carry a weight that belies its brevity, leaving a lasting impact on the reader.

The use of short sentences creates a sense of immediacy and urgency, drawing the reader in and making them feel the emotions along with the writer.

It is a skill that not many possess, and it is something that I greatly admire.

The writer's ability to communicate complex emotions in a simple and direct way is a testament to their talent and creativity.

I can only hope to learn from their example and improve my own writing skills.

Overall, I am truly impressed by this writer and their ability to use short sentences to convey such intense emotions.

Last night, tears streamed down my face. I wept because the journey of becoming a woman had been a painful one. Gone was the blind faith of my childhood. I wept as my eyes were opened wide to the harsh reality - Henry's selfishness, June's lust for power, and my own insatiable creativity that couldn't exist in isolation but had to engage with others.

You see, I'm truly torn. Do I empathize with Nin, or do I find her self-indulgent and narcissistic? These diaries, a small part of her much larger collection, showcase her at her most operatic. She's constantly dramatizing herself as she vacillates between multiple lovers - her husband Hugo, her cousin Eduard, the writer Henry Miller, and his wife June. A part of me wants to reach into the book and give her a good shake. It seems she has far too much idle time, which leads to her need for such a high-intensity emotional and sexual life to fill the void and give her a sense of self. Would she be this obsessive if she had a job to go to every day?

On the other hand, Nin undeniably enriches the literature that challenges cultural myths about female sexuality, gender roles, and the norms of married love. Interestingly, there are many parallels between her journals and her commercial erotica like "Delta of Venus". For example, the scenes where she and Hugo visit brothels and risqué clubs together are mirrored in her erotic works, just as some of the scenarios draw on her experiences as an artist's model.

Overall, these intimate diaries shatter the conservative and bourgeois ideals of gender and sexuality. No doubt, they were shockingly open when written in the early 1930s and first published in the mid-60s. At times, they can seem a bit too polished and edited, but they present a vivid portrait of a restless, free, and searching female spirit in pursuit of both liberation and a sense of belonging within her own body.

I read all the diaries carefully. The words within them seemed to come alive, painting vivid pictures in my mind. I was truly inspired and found myself longing to be a diarist just like her.

Some of the scenes described in this diary are so deeply etched in my memory that they have become an indelible part of me. It's not because of any film adaptation or external influence. No, it's the raw and honest power of her words that have left such a profound impact.

As I turned each page, I felt as if I was right there with her, experiencing her joys, sorrows, and everything in between. The diary became a window into her soul, and I couldn't help but be drawn in.

I imagine myself sitting at a desk, pen in hand, pouring out my own thoughts and feelings onto the page, just like she did. Maybe one day, my diary will also touch the hearts of others and leave a lasting impression.