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I read The Death of Ivan Illyich not only because it is the work of brilliant Leo Tolstoy, a genius whose every prose cuts through my heart, but also because Dr. Wayne Dyer once said that reading this book at 19 completely changed his thinking. As if that were not enough, I fondly remember how my mom read this book as part of an English class assignment in college; she went to college at the same time as me (I was so proud of her, by the way), and Tolstoy even had my mom talking about this book to her family!
The Introduction by Ronald Blythe is a must-read. It is sad to learn about the inner turmoil and conflict that Tolstoy himself had around death, and the precious time of his life he wasted obsessively worried about something that we humans can neither fathom nor explain. Tolstoy himself was the opposite of his main character, Ivan Illyich, in that the latter never wasted any time thinking about an inconvenience such as death until it were upon him, and yet both men were terrified of it to no end.
Ivan Illyich is anything but likable - it's not his terrible flaws as much as his lack of all good and decent human traits. In a way, he is disturbingly neutral, neither negative nor positive and therefore, not terribly likable. But you don't exactly read Tolstoy for his warm and fuzzy characters. You read him for the way he describes the depth and breadth of human experience, and it may be the same reason you might want to avoid Tolstoy altogether because he pulls you in deep and hard and makes you think about his message long after you have closed the last page of the book!
We simply refuse to think - really and truly think - about our own mortality. Even if we study the subject of death, it is a subject of study and no more. And when death happens to someone else, we go through the usual motions of grief and sympathy but ultimately, we are relieved that it was someone else and not us facing that eventual end.
I warn you, it is particularly hard to put it down after the quiet and proper life of Ivan Illyich gets interrupted with an imperceptible pain on his side that first nags at him and then grows so large that it is all he can think about. As the pain grows, Ivan Illyich grows impatient with himself and becomes disconnected from society. His whole life turns into a series of battles: Him versus the pain, him versus the doctors, him versus the wife and the colleagues, and him versus It - It being this impending death that no one talks about but everyone fully expects of him.
The ultimate highlight of the book is when Ivan Illyich hears an audible voice of his soul talking back to him in response to his incessant questioning of why this is happening to him. He questions why he has to die and the voice says what do you want and he answers that he wants to live and the voice asks, live how? And that's when it happens.
And that is the question we will all have to answer at the end of our own precious life - yes, yours and mine too will come to an end someday and there is no coming back to this point in time to relive, re-do and have a second chance.
Tolstoy may have written "The Death of Ivan Illyich" to help us better cope with our own eventual death, but for me, this book was a wake-up call to embrace life even more fiercely than before, and to live for what really and truly matters and that we define in our own ways.
The Introduction by Ronald Blythe is a must-read. It is sad to learn about the inner turmoil and conflict that Tolstoy himself had around death, and the precious time of his life he wasted obsessively worried about something that we humans can neither fathom nor explain. Tolstoy himself was the opposite of his main character, Ivan Illyich, in that the latter never wasted any time thinking about an inconvenience such as death until it were upon him, and yet both men were terrified of it to no end.
Ivan Illyich is anything but likable - it's not his terrible flaws as much as his lack of all good and decent human traits. In a way, he is disturbingly neutral, neither negative nor positive and therefore, not terribly likable. But you don't exactly read Tolstoy for his warm and fuzzy characters. You read him for the way he describes the depth and breadth of human experience, and it may be the same reason you might want to avoid Tolstoy altogether because he pulls you in deep and hard and makes you think about his message long after you have closed the last page of the book!
We simply refuse to think - really and truly think - about our own mortality. Even if we study the subject of death, it is a subject of study and no more. And when death happens to someone else, we go through the usual motions of grief and sympathy but ultimately, we are relieved that it was someone else and not us facing that eventual end.
I warn you, it is particularly hard to put it down after the quiet and proper life of Ivan Illyich gets interrupted with an imperceptible pain on his side that first nags at him and then grows so large that it is all he can think about. As the pain grows, Ivan Illyich grows impatient with himself and becomes disconnected from society. His whole life turns into a series of battles: Him versus the pain, him versus the doctors, him versus the wife and the colleagues, and him versus It - It being this impending death that no one talks about but everyone fully expects of him.
The ultimate highlight of the book is when Ivan Illyich hears an audible voice of his soul talking back to him in response to his incessant questioning of why this is happening to him. He questions why he has to die and the voice says what do you want and he answers that he wants to live and the voice asks, live how? And that's when it happens.
And that is the question we will all have to answer at the end of our own precious life - yes, yours and mine too will come to an end someday and there is no coming back to this point in time to relive, re-do and have a second chance.
Tolstoy may have written "The Death of Ivan Illyich" to help us better cope with our own eventual death, but for me, this book was a wake-up call to embrace life even more fiercely than before, and to live for what really and truly matters and that we define in our own ways.