Catfish and Mandala: A Two-Wheeled Voyage Through the Landscape and Memory of Vietnam

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Catfish and Mandala is the story of an American odyssey—a solo bicycle voyage around the Pacific Rim to Vietnam—made by a young Vietnamese-American man in pursuit of both his adopted homeland and his forsaken fatherland.

Andrew X. Pham was born in Vietnam and raised in California. His father had been a POW of the Vietcong; his family came to America as "boat people." Following the suicide of his sister, Pham quit his job, sold all of his possessions, and embarked on a year-long bicycle journey that took him through the Mexican desert, around a thousand-mile loop from Narita to Kyoto in Japan; and, after five months and 2,357 miles, to Saigon, where he finds "nothing familiar in the bombed-out darkness." In Vietnam, he's taken for Japanese or Korean by his countrymen, except, of course, by his relatives, who doubt that as a Vietnamese he has the stamina to complete his journey ("Only Westerners can do it"); and in the United States he's considered anything but American. A vibrant, picaresque memoir written with narrative flair and an eye-opening sense of adventure, Catfish and Mandala is an unforgettable search for cultural identity.

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April 25,2025
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Many people, especially in their 20s, embark on long treks across various regions of the world in search of something.... adventure? home? revelation? identity? In the case of Andrew Pham, his trip by bicycle across Vietnam involves all of the above. His family escaped from Vietnam on a rickety boat after the fall of Saigon, and, after several years in a refugee camp in Indonesia, immigrated to the United States. Twenty-odd years later, Andrew returns to Vietnam, now an adult on his own and as not only a Vietnamese but a Vietnamese-American. They hyphen between those two identities is the axis on which much of his journey of self-discovery turns. What makes this book so powerful is that we are not reading the account of a developing country by a completely removed outsider. Instead, Andrew weaves his own family's traumatic past in with his current adventures. As he comments on himself, he is both insider and outsider.

I really appreciated his descriptions of the clash of his American "wealth" as it stands in stark contrast to the poverty of most of Vietnam. He openly talks about his discomforts, his confusions, his exasperations, his hopes, his disappointments... everything. We realize as his trip progresses and the story of his family's life unfolds, that there is a deep well of pain not only inside of him but perhaps inside of Vietnam's national identity as a whole that aches to be healed.

Also, Pham's writing is fantastic. It is rich in descriptive imagery, and he takes the use of active verbs to an entirely new level. I want to pull some of his paragraphs to use with my seniors next fall when I am teaching them how to use active verbs effectively in their college essays. I'll leave you with a taste: "After Nha Trang, the land dries up. The sky hurts with a whispering blue. The air chafes, a marine tinge, rough on its hot grainy edge. Down by the strung-out coast, the sea lies open, three shades deeper than the bright above. The road is black and broad, curving round sandstone mountains and cutting straight through the flat beige stretches. Suong rong -- dragon bones, squatty Vietnamese cacti -- cast the vast empty into a shallow prickly graveyard. They say dragons came here to die. The land scorched itself in sorrow over the great beasts' passing" (p. 335).
April 25,2025
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We have a lot of work to do on race in America. I'm exhausted just thinking about it, but as a white-as-you-can-get-without-bleach American I have to at least show up to read books like these. Because Americans of color and other ethnicities have to live through the brutality of it every day of their lives.
April 25,2025
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This book added more fuel to a fire I had to bike across Vietnam. (Someday, when I'm gray.) However Catfish and Mandala is more than cultural travelogue. Mr. Pham so eloquently ponders the complicated experience of never quite finding "home". An immigrant to the United States when he was a child, a trip to his parents' homeland was meant to be a reconnection with his roots. Sadly, a need for belonging felt keenly during his transplanted American childhood is never fully satisfied upon his return to Vietnam.

In my tiny opinion, Mr. Pham is so unfairly blessed with fearless talent and rebellious intellect that he might be too smart for his own good. He's also biked across Mexico and Japan, built his own home by hand, pursued a dual degree in aerospace engineering along with his Masters degree in writing, and published a cookbook. A mind such as his, endlessly examines the complex cultural ironies and shades of meaning in the smallest details. It made for a bittersweet read and his view of the world is utterly unique.
April 25,2025
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After months of guilt over not making better progress in this book, I'm calling it quits on "Catfish and Mandala". There are two stories in this book, and like a lot of books with two story lines, one is a great read and the other feels like a slog through the mud.

In "Catfish and Mandala", there is a story about the book's author, a self-centered young adult going on a "rebel's" journey to his homeland of Vietnam. This story was far too bitter and narcissistic to be enjoyable. The author really needs to do some deep soul searching, and not just the surface level plumbs represented in this book. As a reader, I really don't care that the author ran away from home on his bike to another country as a young adult while trying to pacify the lack of control he felt as a child, and the author does nothing to bring me to the point of caring.

The author does, however, write very movingly about his father's journey to escape Vietnam with his family at the close of war in the 1970s. I only made it halfway through the book, but the father's struggles are enthralling to read. I only wish is comprised a larger chunk of the book. Because the book had those fascinating glimpses into another world, I bumped my rating up to 2 stars.
April 25,2025
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though i appreciate pham's prose and his frankness in airing out his family's dirty laundry, i think i would've liked this more if it were fiction. but b/c it's real life, and there's only so much self-reflection, vulnerability, and even embellishment a writer can and is willing to share, the narrative is limited to what "actually" happened and what figurative (or philosophical/moral/existential) meanings we can retroactively derive from and attribute to what are mostly random occurrences in the grand chaos of life. and i'm not sure i agree with or like the conclusions pham came to throughout and at the end of his two-wheeled journey: a concoction of two parts self-loathing, two parts "not asian enough but not american enough either" identity issues, one part passive support of western hegemony, a hefty spoonful of entitlement, and a dash of misogyny that left a lingering, sour taste in my mouth.

also, i think we, as immigrants and their descendants, need to get past this delusion of "finding one's cultural identity" by returning/visiting the motherland. culture, identity, and self are not stagnant things with a singular source; they are ever-changing and adaptive, a tangled web of many threads. pham wanted a nice little bow to tie off his complex, multi-faceted struggles and tried too hard to make one. sometimes there isn't a revelation at the end. in real life that's okay.
April 25,2025
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Vietnam seems to be calling me recently. The graphic novel of "Artemis Fowl" startles me with its opening depiction of the central market in Saigon. A student researches Nixon's presidency and the fall of Saigon. I read "Tree of Smoke," and go to the internet to pull up maps, pictures and stories of Saigon, its surroundings, and the larger Mekong delta region, to look at the places I saw so many years ago (1969-1970). I am drawn into this work, on a summer reading list for another student. Pham seamlessly interweaves who he is today (bravely exposing his flaws), his homeland as he tours it, mostly by bike, and his family's troubled history and extraordinary escape as boat people, with insight and humor. While recommending the book to another Vietnamese expatriate, the father of one my students, he tells me about his own amazing journey to America, just as harrowing and dramatic as that of Pham's. And he lends me a DVD of the excellent and moving movie about the boat people, "Journey from the Fall." Read the book; see the movie.
April 25,2025
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Words cannot describe how much I hated this book. It is a shame, because Andrew Pham is a talented writer who has an eloquent way with words. However, is tendency to concentrate on the sordid, seedy side of life, seeing only the bad and little of the good, made for a dark and depressing read that was difficult to complete. I recognize that he had some difficult and painful experiences in life, but who doesn't. His knack for focusing on the dismal side of human existence was most disappointing in my opinion.
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