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I first read this in 1975, as I precariously trod the dull, straight and narrow road in a Chorpromazine-addled miasma.
My job that year was likewise dull...
It consisted of earmarking files to call forward at the request of engineers later on, putting files once returned under lock and key, and fixing paper jams in the photocopier.
And generally gadbouting about at the beck and call of my seniors.
With the meds I was a fly - pinned and wriggling.
Oh, at least there were magazines, like at your dentist's office, to divert me from dronish drudgery. But I hated the seventies. Who knew - I was averse to the amoral.
I had all the makings of a fledgling Christian, but I didn't see any signs of Heaven in this Hell, with my pills. I didn’t see I was a Grain of Sand on an Endless Beach.
So I wasn't one. We are saved by hope!
And The Big Sleep matched my mood, a real roman noir. Back then, L.A. was as corrupt as the entire world is now.
Marlowe (a nod to Conrad?) has been there, done that and seen "The Horror!"
It's never Pretty, I muttered over my magazine.
There are no eyes here in this valley of dying stars
in this hollow valley
This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms
Yikes! I looked up suddenly from People Magazine and saw the big sign over the photocopier as an engineer was doing his job - (spy versus spy) - and knew I had been caught:
It said "EYES UP AND LOOKING!" for the Cold War's fear was why I had a job.
Back to reality!
I was not doing my work.
You know, as my one of my fave writers, Ajahn Brahm, stresses, mindfulness is key!
For it is the Path to Peace...
And the value of my meds was only in the lessons to be learnt from them.
Avoid making waves, kids - you’ll have more friends, and you’ll always see the Universe in every Grain of Sand!
My job that year was likewise dull...
It consisted of earmarking files to call forward at the request of engineers later on, putting files once returned under lock and key, and fixing paper jams in the photocopier.
And generally gadbouting about at the beck and call of my seniors.
With the meds I was a fly - pinned and wriggling.
Oh, at least there were magazines, like at your dentist's office, to divert me from dronish drudgery. But I hated the seventies. Who knew - I was averse to the amoral.
I had all the makings of a fledgling Christian, but I didn't see any signs of Heaven in this Hell, with my pills. I didn’t see I was a Grain of Sand on an Endless Beach.
So I wasn't one. We are saved by hope!
And The Big Sleep matched my mood, a real roman noir. Back then, L.A. was as corrupt as the entire world is now.
Marlowe (a nod to Conrad?) has been there, done that and seen "The Horror!"
It's never Pretty, I muttered over my magazine.
There are no eyes here in this valley of dying stars
in this hollow valley
This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms
Yikes! I looked up suddenly from People Magazine and saw the big sign over the photocopier as an engineer was doing his job - (spy versus spy) - and knew I had been caught:
It said "EYES UP AND LOOKING!" for the Cold War's fear was why I had a job.
Back to reality!
I was not doing my work.
You know, as my one of my fave writers, Ajahn Brahm, stresses, mindfulness is key!
For it is the Path to Peace...
And the value of my meds was only in the lessons to be learnt from them.
Avoid making waves, kids - you’ll have more friends, and you’ll always see the Universe in every Grain of Sand!