She watched the child stack the wood in the box. “If power were trust,” she said. “I like that word. If it weren’t all these arrangements - one above the other - kings and masters and mages and owners - It all seems so unnecessary. Real power, real freedom, would lie in trust, not force.”
I've always had something to complain about with Le Guin books and it's felt weird. It's like I am not getting something that so many people love. Well, I have a confession to make. I don't get dragons. Like I just don't get the appeal?! But more importantly, I knew from the first pages that this would be my favorite Ursula book and this was true all throughout it. So many people were telling me that I'd love it, but then again, so many people told me I'd love The Dispossessed and I just liked it. But this, this is one of those books that feels like it's made for me and my tastes and not only is it my fave Ursula, it's also now one of my favorite books.
Life danced me. I know the dancer, but I don't know who the dancer is.
From the get go I could feel a sort of confidence and directness that I haven't felt in any of her novels. The writing is almost unbearably tender and there is so much pain there and anger. It is incredibly honest and Ursula K. Le Guin finally addresses womanhood head-on. As opposed to The Left Hand of Darkness, which I'd say is indirectly about women, but more overtly about The Other. So there is a maturity, nuance and complexity here that I adored and felt very hurt by, oof. We pick up with Tenar from The Tombs of Atuan 25 years later and she is a widow now, with two grown children. She has sort of recently adopted a disfigured girl, Therru. This is where I come with a content warning: Therru is a victim of CSA and she was badly abused and dealing with the trauma. The book really surprised me with the level of real-life violence and brutality mentioned and depicted, especially in the beginning and the end. And Tenar is a middle-aged woman who is fucking angry and extremely relatable in her anger.
A good deal of her obscurity and cant, Tenar had begun to realize, was mere ineptness with words and ideas. Nobody had ever taught her to think consecutively. Nobody had ever listened to what she said. All that was expected, all that was wanted of her was muddle, mystery, mumbling. She was a witchwoman. She had nothing to do with clear meaning.
One of the things I hated the most in A Wizard of Earthsea was the mixture of sexism of the world and Le Guin's acknowledged internalized sexism, manifesting in things I never forgot like weak as women's magic, wicked as women's magic, a sort of 'common wisdom' found in the world. But here, Tenar and Le Guin in meta-mode meditate on that saying and the bullshit that lies beneath it. But it's not just Tenar's own thought process on the places women have in this world that comments on the saying. I loved that Le Guin revisited a character like Auntie Moss to pull apart at the stereotype of witch she used in the first book. Awesome, no notes!
I also loved the relationship between Tenar and Therru, and how Therru's trauma is presented from the outside. I think her disfigurement was nicely handled in the book. Tenar worries about what her life will be like being shunned and blamed by people for her really bad burns and would like the girl to be healed, but the narrative very clearly tells us that it's the people who are wrong and not my sweet cinnamon bun Therru who is worthy of all the love and care. And Tenar is also worried about what to teach Therru about the world. She is worried that she is teaching her 'womanly' things like cooking and spinning, while at the same time trying to unpack for herself that womanly things are not necessarily inferior. Loved all of this.
“I don’t know, my dearie. I’ve thought on it. Often I’ve thought on it. The best I can say it is like this. A man’s in his skin, see, like a nut in its shell.” She held up her long, bent, wet fingers as if holding a walnut. “It’s hard and strong, that shell, and it’s all full of him. Full of grand man-meat, manself. And that’s all. That’s all there is. It’s all him and nothing else, inside.”
And there are actually even more female characters that round out the cast in such a pleasant way. And then we come to the men! Honestly, I don't know what's going on, but seeing Sparrowhawk and the new king Lebannen through Tenar's eyes, even for a few pages, has made me see them with more tenderness myself. Tenar is just that great as a character, actually. I loved being in her head so much. And I feel like re-reading the series after this would make it even better. Because there is so much commentary on past books and the world, seen from the side of women. Sparrowhawk has gone through something at the ending of the last book and now he has to figure out how to live his life anew. And I didn't used to like him, but the book convinced me. There's a lot here about how men build their identity on their power and mission and ego and how if women had power too, the men would be lost, because they'd lose their identity. But Sparrowhawk somehow manages to work within his new situation. One of the first endearing moments for him is when Tenar wants to clear the table, but he says: I'll do it and he does the dishes. It's because he has been on his own for so long, and he doesn't default to having the nearby woman do it. I really dug that and the rest of what happened to him.
So yeah, yesterday we had the Ursula K. Le Guin 50 km walk. I did 30 of that and I'm proud. And I was already talking about the first half of this book super-passionately. A friend said that me loving it is very on-brand, so there you go. I finally have a Le Guin book that's in my personal pantheon of books. Worth celebrating!