Sinclair symbolizes Hesse... the seeker of himself, as he expresses at the beginning of his book: "I only wanted to live according to the true motives that sprang from my inner self. Why was it so difficult?" And this short preface is what touched my spirit more than the novel - and what touched it a lot - I have always wanted to live a natural life, the life for which I was created, the life that springs from my inner self far from any civil or cultural distortion. I wanted to go to a virgin land on the earth so that my spirit could return pure.
Sinclair also wanted that, and Hesse, but Wilson says that he did not find the answer in any of his novels. As for me, I imagine that if he had known Muhammad, he would have found a lot. Indeed, Hesse investigates religion, but he does not find the religion he is seeking in Christianity, because he is seeking what is closest to man, and he expresses this in the words of Demian: "In the same way, they expand God as a father for all life, but they simply reject a single word about our sexual life on which everything is based, and they describe it as a sin whenever they can, on the basis that it is the work of the devil." I find in this sentence a wealth of appreciation for the human essence that the church has despised, and this is what Biejuftsch expresses when he says that Christianity is a religion of the spirit in his book Islam between East and West.
As for the Prophet of Islam, Muhammad, he used to encourage people to live according to the nature that God had created them upon, but that call was not in vain or permissive. Rather, Islam regulated the essence of marriage by sanctifying and honoring it from fornication and God prohibited it outside the divine covenant. Indeed, it is the creative combination between the spirit and the body, and Hesse was seeking something like this.
Sinclair found his spiritual salvation in two women. The first is Beatrice, the pure and chaste girl in whom he saw the lost purity of the world personified, and his life changed immediately without him talking to her. He stopped frequenting prostitutes and excessive drinking and a wasteful life. As for the second woman, she is Eva, the mother of Demian. She was his mother, his dream, his messiah, his physical essence, and his spiritual refuge. They separated before they could unite physically, and I don't understand why Hesse chose Eva to be older than Sinclair. There is a mystery in this that is similar to the mystery that made Muhammad marry a woman like Khadija. How I love the philosophy of Hesse regarding the relationship between a man and a woman in this novel.
I also love Demian. I read in the margin of the novel that his name is a corruption of demon, that is, the satanic spirit, or something like that. But Demian was not a devil. He was an extreme human being in his humanity, and often this extremity turns us into devils in the value system of others. We find Demian sanctifying the personality of Cain who killed his brother Abel, and he tries to push Sinclair to think about the story from another angle because humanity means that we make mistakes. He once said to Sinclair: "I don't mean that you kill or rape a girl, but think about what is permissible again."
The music that Pistorius plays in the novel also touched my heart. I wished I could sit on a wooden bench next to him and listen to him and Sinclair without them seeing me. Indeed, Pistorius symbolizes the man who wants to create the future, but he is connected to the past. Therefore, he creates prophets and priests who in turn create the future.
"The bird struggles to get out of the egg. The egg is the world. He who wants to be born must first destroy a world... The bird flies to God."