There are certain roles that I truly relish in this life.
When I was younger, while babysitting, I adored playing the part of the Cool Teenage Girl. It was the most effective and energy-efficient way to win the hearts of children. Answering questions like "Do you have a boyfriend?" and "Do you go to parties?" 800 times was far easier than running around or doing crafts.
I am still a huge fan of embodying the Sympathetic Customer at any retail or service establishment I visit. Thanks to years of retail/service work, this is more of a truth about myself than a mere persona, but I exaggerate it to such an extent that it still holds true.
However, my all-time favorite character will always be the English Student Who Is Devoted Enough And Sufficiently Respected To Get Away With Sh*t Talking The Assigned Reading In Class.
And boy, did I go for the gold with this book.
When I was in high school, there was also a cult of white boys who refused to even make eye contact with any girl who wasn't Asian. There were probably six of them游荡 in the halls, actively fetishizing. Seven if you count Hermann Hesse via the copies of Siddhartha that half the junior-year English classes had to read.
This book is just bizarre.
This is part of a series I am doing where I - as I've said before and I'll say it again - claim to be reviewing books I read a long time ago, but more actively reveal unasked-for truths about my high school experience.
The time is set in the distant past. The place is India. There is a young man named Siddhartha, who is adored by everyone. He is a wise and upright individual who inspires those around him, yet he himself is not content with his life and the world around him, especially on a spiritual level. He feels that there is something lacking. Why isn't it enough? It's hard to say, but it's human nature to question the essence of things, such as the existence of God or any higher power. Siddhartha, however, is in a more fortunate position. He is aware that a superior entity exists, and he simply desires to know and feel more.
Siddhartha believes that all he has acquired is not sufficient to bring him satisfaction and bliss. He thinks that his father and the other Brahmans have already imparted all the wisdom they possess. But as he says, "the vessel was not full, the spirit was not content, the soul was not calm, the heart was not satisfied." So, he makes the difficult decision to leave his family and his good friend Govinda and embarks on a life of contemplation, hoping to attain spiritual enlightenment. He becomes a Samana, but their philosophy fails to satisfy his heart, and thus he continues his solitary quest.
After crossing a river with the help of a ferryman, he arrives at a city. There, Siddhartha meets a beautiful and intelligent woman who teaches him about love and other aspects of life. However, after a few years, this empty lifestyle of worldly pleasures wears him down, and he returns to the river that once gave him inspiration. After some time and through various experiences, he is able to listen to the river's voice along with the ferryman, who becomes his spiritual guide. Eventually, Siddhartha finds enlightenment and reaches Nirvana on his own.
This is a beautiful story of a man's journey of self-discovery. A wise young man who experiences the highs and lows of life like everyone else. After a period filled with pleasures and materialism, he returns to the spiritual life he craves. Nevertheless, the time he spent with the woman cannot be considered a waste. It was a necessary step for him to achieve something greater. Everything he has endured has contributed to his growth and experience, leading him back to the path he was meant to take. We often need to reach rock bottom in order to find our way back to the right track. If listening to a seemingly talking river can help us and enable spiritual growth, then so be it.
Leaving aside any sarcastic remarks, I truly loved Siddhartha. In my opinion, there is no comparison between this book and some other novels involving alchemists. This one is truly an inspiring work that makes us question and reevaluate the things we thought were clear. I read it in both English and Spanish simultaneously, and of course, it was like reading two different books. But I can say that I enjoyed Hesse's writing, although I'm not sure if his style is accurately captured in those translations. (I really need to learn French, German, and Italian to truly understand his work.)
Metaphors, reflections, descriptions, characters, and emotions are all beautifully depicted by Hesse. He has a tendency to repeat words within a passage, which gives the reading experience a pleasant rhythm (although sometimes it can seem redundant). I'm not sure if this only makes sense to me. Probably.
I have a penchant for philosophical novels, and this one was no exception. I'm not certain if it will change my perspective on life (since I haven't encountered any talking rivers yet), but Siddhartha was a joy to read.
Jun 23, 2013
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