Jalal Al-e Ahmad writes about Dostoyevsky:
"I am afraid of Dostoyevsky, even horrified. That is, whenever I have read a book of his, I have been horrified. Not because of the kind of criminal story he tells with the intention of exciting nerves and creating fear and all that, but because in the face of the complex world of his mind, I feel insulted. The feeling of nothingness, of non-being."
This is exactly my reaction every time after reading Dostoyevsky's books. A feeling of horror, emptiness, and powerlessness.
After finishing each of Dostoyevsky's books, I tell myself that this is the end of it, but the next book surprises me again.
His characters have also subdued me, the reader.
In terms of narration and the number of characters, it was more complex than what I had read before.
The characters were truly maddening.
Sick, fanatical, excessive characters with their own special ideologies.
Little by little, I was able to understand and comprehend each of them. Among all of them, understanding Petrashevsky, the devil, was harder for me and I hated him more than anyone else.
"Subdued" was one of the best experiences of my Dostoyevsky reading.
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My feeling at this moment:
I am glad that there are still books by Dostoyevsky that I have not read.
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