I think I'm about ready to give up on reading classic literature. It seems that every time I pick up a classic, I'm faced with a narrative voice that is just as irritating as the many long diversions that ruined "The Brothers Karamazov" for me. In that book, the author went on and on about the evils of atheism and the character of the Russian peasant, which felt like a never-ending tangent. Now, in this new work I'm reading, it's no better. The author is addressing the reader directly and ascribing annoying straw man arguments to "you" just so he can rant about the laws of nature and determinism. I keep wondering if it will ever improve and actually develop some plot. Should I give up now or keep going in the hope that it will get better?
This Russian writer, to me, is the epitome of a "tortured artist". It is palpable in each and every one of his books and stories. He appears to long for a transcendence of his life and times that reality simply refuses to grant him. The overall impression is that of a man whose brilliant intelligence and highly attuned consciousness are both a source of inspiration and a curse. Time and again, he描绘出一个感觉自己像局外人的男人的形象,不仅与他所处时代的政治氛围疏离且格格不入,而且在与一般人相处时也存在困难,他似乎在觉得人们乏味愚蠢和将他们浪漫化到有些荒谬的程度之间摇摆不定。他与女性的关系充满了过度的情感、令人窒息的情感需求、不信任和冲突。也许他就像一部失控的俄罗斯单人肥皂剧,但我得到的印象是,即使他的脆弱吸引了某些女性,他也是一个令人疲惫且可能像吸血鬼一样的浪漫伴侣。他的角色聪明且善于观察,但也充满了焦虑、忧郁和内疚。(尤其是在《地下室手记》中,有时候我会厌倦他冗长的赘述,但总体来说他的节奏还算不错。)所有这些因素结合在一起,造就了充满激情和情绪化的故事,而这本书在这方面表现得淋漓尽致。尽管很容易认为这个男人是一位成功的作家,他确实也是,但他也一直被贫困所困扰。不幸的是,他沉迷于赌博,这让他一直处于艰难的境地。这就是从这些故事中得到的印象,一个要么深陷于自己在经济和情感稳定方面的挣扎的“地下室”中的男人,要么是一个渴望着现实世界,尤其是在他所处的时代和地点无法提供给他的精神乌托邦的男人。他的写作对他来说一定是最具治疗性的,因为他的哲学和社会分析的天性似乎无休止地困扰着他。你不禁会喜欢上这个人;这些故事既精彩绝伦、又悲伤忧郁、令人不安,同时还美丽动人。书中几乎每一页都闪耀着他的激情。这是我第三次涉足这位作家汹涌澎湃的作品之海,他是一个值得珍藏的作家;《卡拉马佐夫兄弟》是我接下来要读的,但我可能得为这次阅读体验做好准备,因为我知道它可能会非常强烈。没有人能像陀思妥耶夫斯基那样表现出强烈的情感!