"I love order. It's my dream. A world where all would be silent and still and each thing in its last place, under the last dust."In this ideal world, there would be no chaos, no randomness. Every object would have its designated position, and it would remain there, undisturbed. The stillness would be profound, broken only by the softest of whispers or the gentle rustle of the wind. This love for order stems from a desire for stability and predictability. In an ordered world, one knows what to expect, and there are no surprises or uncertainties to disrupt the peace. It is a world where one can find solace and安宁, away from the hustle and bustle of the real world. While this dream of a perfectly ordered world may seem utopian, it serves as a guiding principle for me. It reminds me to strive for order in my own life, to organize my thoughts, my possessions, and my actions. It is a constant reminder that in the midst of chaos, there is always the possibility of creating order.
Ham: In my house. One day you will become blind like me. There you will shine, exactly at a point in the void, in the darkness, forever, like me. One day you will say to yourself that you are tired. You want to sit down, then you go and shine. Then you say, I'm hungry, I stand up and bring something to eat. But you don't stand up and you don't bring anything to eat. You look at the wall a little, then you say, I shouldn't have sat down, I shine a little more, then I stand up and bring something to eat. But you don't stand up and you don't bring anything to eat. You look at the wall a little, then you say I close my eyes, maybe I'll sleep a little, then my condition will be better, then you put them down. Then when you open them again there is no more wall... The endless void surrounds you. Even all the heroes if they are alive cannot fill that void, and there you are like a grain of sand in the desert...
Yes, one day you will understand what it is, you will become like me, except that there is nothing with you, because you have not shown mercy to anyone and because there is no one for you to show mercy to.
- Samuel Beckett - Endgame