I was sitting and thinking, why is such a profound mark of sorrow engraved in the midst of our country's fields, shores, and the sky of red dawn?
— Rabindranath Tagore, Shahjadpur, June 1891, Fragment
Istanbul: Memories of a City. In this remarkable work by Pamuk, mainly three stories are described together: how the author's desire to become a writer was awakened exactly, his own position with the group of troubled writers in Turkey, and his views and reminiscences about the troubled and evocative historical and cultural situation of Istanbul as a fallen city.
Just as we claim to be Dhakaiya, Chattogramiya etc. according to our place of birth, Pamuk also claims himself as an Istanbullu at the beginning of his work.
After that, comes into view the history and culture of Istanbul created by Western and Turkish writers and painters that Pamuk takes up, and along with that, we can see what kind of trouble, or in his words, the mark of hüzün is engraved everywhere in his consciousness on the paths, neighborhoods, bazaars, streets, Bosporus system, mosques, minarets, and church domes of Istanbul. He believes that there is a difference between trouble and hüzün. Although that difference was not so clear to me. The word has its origin from the Arabic language. The word is also used in the Quran. It has a close association with the pain of losing something, with the death of a dear person.
"We might call this confused, hazy state melancholy, or perhaps we should call it by its Turkish name, hüzün, which denotes a melancholy that is communal rather than private”
“I’ve spent my life either battling this melancholy or making it my own”
“So it was that I finally came to relax and accept the hüzün that gives Istanbul its grave beauty, the beauty that is its fate”
The matter starts to become clear to me when I can understand that this pain is the pain of losing an empire, the pain that is embedded in every Istanbullu, in the midst of cultural events after the loss of the Ottoman Empire. We can understand this pain of losing the empire in a slightly different way. In 1934, a short story by Bibhutibhushan Bandyopadhyay titled 'The House of Bhandul Mama' was published. The narrator of the story sees from his childhood to his youth that one of his uncles is building a big house in the rural environment but he can never complete the house fully. Even at the last moment of his life, his dream of building the house remains incomplete. The narrator seems to see a kind of profound mark of sorrow in the midst of the dilapidated house with creeping vines until the end. Can the house here be taken symbolically as the empire? Then not only Orhan Pamuk, there are thousands of Orhan Pamuks in the world who are shaken by the pain of losing the empire. A very excellent analytical book on this subject is: Thinking of Nirad C. Chowdhury by Ian Almond.
I don't have much reading and writing on the subject of psychology. If I had, I would have delved into the psychological analysis of Orhan's work. Because after finishing the book, only this exclamation remains in my mind: The psychological analysis of this reminiscence is very much needed.
Pamuk, in this autobiographical novel, speaks completely truthfully about his life - family, education, faith, and finally the city where he was born and where he spent most of his life. All his memories he ties to that city, thus giving a portrait of Istanbul from his birth until the moment when he decided to engage in writing. He speaks truthfully about everything that oppressed him, about the city that suffocated him in his youth and about the deep-rooted problems, the gradual impoverishment caused by his father's bad business in the family enterprise, then about painting, the study of architecture, first love.
The middle part of the book is occupied by data on the writers that the author considers worthy of mention. It is about several well-known Turkish writers who have written more or less about Istanbul in their works. Pamuk thus makes a parallel between the time described in those works and the Istanbul in which he lived his life. The novel extends to 400 pages and each chapter contains appropriate photographs that are very useful for readers like me who have never visited Istanbul. There are Istanbul streets throughout history, as well as private photographs of his family, mother, father, brother, and grandmother to whom he dedicated one chapter. Interesting is also the sudden change that Istanbul was hit by at the beginning of the 20th century. It is known that the great Empire was then gradually disappearing and the Republic was being created under the leadership of Ataturk. Those changes marked the lives of many Istanbul residents - some of them constantly suffered for the old times, while others tried with all their might to approach the West.
No matter how autobiographical this novel is, it is at the same time a tribute to one great city, a city of rich and interesting history.
"I write so that the whole world will know what I am like, what others are like - we, all of us who have lived and are living in Istanbul, in Turkey. I write because I love the smell of paper, pencils, and ink. I write because, more than anything else, I believe in literature, the art of the novel. I write because it is a habit and a passion. I write because I am afraid of being forgotten."