I first read this book in the early 1980s during a university course on autobiography. We delved into works that traced the history of the genre, culminating with this particular one. I vividly recall reading Rousseau and deriving great pleasure from his writing. However, this book left an indelible mark, perhaps due to my youth and the resonance it had with some of my personal experiences. The sole paper assigned for the class was our own 'autobiography'. Although I no longer possess that paper (that's a story for another time), I remember it clearly. Each of my five siblings was the focus of a 'chapter', and the professor had only one negative comment, stating that I hadn't captured one brother as effectively as the others. I concur; he has always been the most elusive.
Earlier this month, after sharing the details of a project I'm working on with a friend and explaining how I intended to connect fictional sections with nonfictional bits, she recommended I reread this book. I heeded her advice and was astonished to discover that I had 'borrowed' some of McCarthy's techniques. Did this method emerge from the depths of my subconscious? Who can say? I have no idea how many books I've read or how many might have influenced me in various ways. Of course, it's not an exact replication: for instance, McCarthy maintains a consistent first-person perspective throughout, and even though she later clarifies what is fictional, that is, what isn't an exact memory.
Times have evolved since McCarthy penned this work, so her memoirs (initially published in magazines and later incorporated into this book) are not as controversial as they would be today. And yet, in some ways, times haven't changed. In the opening chapter 'To the Reader', I was struck by the resemblance between the hate mail McCarthy received and a certain type of online commenting today. The'scurrilous' letters from lay readers, mostly women (she notes that the priests and nuns who wrote to her were always gracious), were so alike that she remarks they could have been written by a single person: 'frequently full of misspellings', despite the claim of being educated; 'all, without exception, menacing'; 'they attempt to constitute themselves a pressure group'; and one even asserts that what McCarthy has written is illegal.
Since I'm reading this for a different purpose than I typically do when reading a book, I'm finding it challenging to review. Last night, I chanced upon a random review of McCarthy with a low rating that simply stated'she's no role model'. I believe this misses the point. However, if one wishes to judge a work in that manner, I would argue that this is an honest, courageous, true-to-herself, and well-written account - and something we can all strive for.