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This novel appears to delve into Murdoch's concept that "being indifferent to one's own misery is not the same as being indifferent to others" (pp 292). I was initially attracted to this novel precisely because of a completely valid criticism that, by concentrating on questions regarding what is good within the context of desires and duties among the educated, English middle class, Murdoch both illuminates and misses a great deal. Although a classical education is constantly referenced in this novel, the protagonist Hilary is an orphan whose language skills enable him to attend Oxford only to have love and desire shatter his life... twice. The backdrop of the civil service workplace, with its careers, daily bureaucracy, and office politics, effectively conveys the themes of duty and desire that Murdoch is exploring. Hilary seems to be indifferent to his misery, yet is also obsessed with it. He desires to repent but only repeats his mistakes. The novel has the typical amusement of characters who drink far too much, inappropriately fall in love, and act on their desires while being fully aware that they are making a mistake. And the characters discuss their desires and conflicts so well that I, at least, feel no guilt in reading it. I have found other books by her to be more enjoyable to read, but this one is as well. Hilary is an entirely unlikable character in many respects, and I cannot understand the relationship between pity and attraction that binds much of the book's action together. And all the other characters are deliberately flat because we are viewing them from Hilary's internal perspective. But Hilary is incredibly hilarious due to the type of nihilism that his indifference to his own suffering engenders. The image of the book that will remain with me is that of Hilary's highly routinized life, which organizes the book as chapters all named after the days of the week. "I relied upon routine, perhaps ever since I realized that grammatical rules were to be my salvation; and since I had despaired of salvation, even more so." Sunday poses a problem for Hilary in this context, and there are few chapters under its name. The other image that persists in my mind is Hilary's preferred drinking spot, the platform bars at Sloane Square station or Liverpool Street station. "In the whole extension of the Underground system, those two stations are, as far as I've been able to discover, the only ones which have bars actually upon the platform. The concept of the tube station platform bar excited me.... These two bars were... the source of a dark excitement, places of profound communication with London, excitement, with the sources of life, with the caverns of resignation to grief and to mortality" (pp 37). This is an escape for Hilary. But I keep wondering: were there really bars on tube platforms in the 1970s?