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Why i even bothered to pick this book up. Really not my type
The future belongs to the people, and gradually, or in one strike, they will take power, here and in every country. The terrible thing is the people need to be educated, and this they cannot do before taking power, only after. They can only learn at the cost of their own mistakes, which will be very serious and will cost many innocent lives. Or perhaps not, maybe those lives will not have been innocent because they will have committed the huge sin against nature; meaning, a lack of ability to adapt. All of them, those unable to adapt — you and I, for example — will die cursing the power they helped, through great sacrifice, to create. Revolution is impersonal; it will take their lives, even utilizing their memory as an example or as an instrument for domesticating the youth who follow them. My sin is greater because I, more astute and with greater experience, call it what you like, will die knowing that my sacrifice stems only from an inflexibility symbolizing our rotten civilization, which is crumbling. I also know — and this won’t alter the course of history or your personal view of me — that you will die with a clenched fist and a tense jaw, the epitome of hatred and struggle, because you are not a symbol (some inanimate example) but a genuine member of the society to be destroyed; the spirit of the beehive speaks through your mouth and motivates your actions. You are as useful as I am, but you are not aware of how useful your contribution is to the society that sacrifices you.
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But despite his words, I now knew… I knew that when the great
guiding spirit cleaves humanity into two antagonistic halves, I would be with the people. I know this, I see it printed in the night sky that I, eclectic dissembler of doctrine and psychoanalyst of dogma,
howling like one possessed, will assault the barricades or the trenches, will take my bloodstained
weapon and, consumed with fury, slaughter any enemy who falls into my hands. And I see, as if a
great exhaustion smothers this fresh exaltation, I see myself, immolated in the genuine revolution,
the great equalizer of individual will, proclaiming the ultimate mea culpa. I feel my nostrils dilate,
savoring the acrid smell of gunpowder and blood, the enemy’s death; I steel my body, ready to do
battle, and prepare myself to be a sacred space within which the bestial howl of the triumphant
proletariat can resound with new energy and new hope.