There are ten writing lines left on this page and I have decided not to use the last line. I'll leave it to somebody else's life. I hope they will make better use of it than I would have. But I did try.
These are the profound last words of Richard Brautigan's writing. A little over 2 years later, he would tragically commit suicide and this book would remain a hidden secret until it was published in French in 1994, and then in English in 2000.
I have been a devoted Brautigan fan for nearly 10 years now. I have delved into his strange, non-sequitur ramblings, his surreal works of fiction, his quotidian poetry, and his complete disregard for formality, tone, and even at times, a consistent plot. And now, I have quite literally reached the end of his work. There is nothing more after this book.
What's truly sad is that, about halfway through, you realize this is essentially the beginning of his suicide note. He is ostensibly writing about a woman who committed suicide, but at times, the narrative clearly becomes about him. He was tired and feeling hopeless when he wrote this, and you can sense it. This is supposedly a work of fiction, but you really come to understand that this is Brautigan revealing his desire to die, through the lens of fiction. It is a deeply melancholy realization. The closer I got to the ending of this book, the more profound the sadness I felt.
He, although feeling hopeless and without direction, wants you to be amazed by all the places he traveled, because he himself is amazed he managed to do it. And it truly is amazing. A man who likely lived his life in delusion and squalor had such a rich and eventful existence, and yet, he managed to make it all sound so simple.
And what of this book? Its imagery is unmistakably Brautigan, his metaphors are elaborate, humorous, and relatable. His stream of consciousness method of prose is at its finest here. Whereas you or I as writers might pause and have a completely random thought while writing and disregard it, he incorporates it. It becomes an integral part of the story. Somehow, it all works.
This is by far one of his most memorable works, right up there with Trout Fishing and In Watermelon Sugar.