We should not forget that this is the calendar of a man's existence for a few months, and I think it would be unfair to expect it to be perfect, if such a thing exists. Perhaps, the things most similar to perfection are those enormous absolutely empty holes that astronomers recently discovered in space.
It is ironic that I started with the end in Richard Brautigan's work, the one that was published posthumously, 10 years after his suicide. It is ironic that the title is "A Woman Without Luck" when it is protagonist by a man, the narrator, who punctually refers to two women, both dead. It is ironic that this writer of the Beat Generation talks about the suicide of one of them, when he himself would later commit suicide shortly after. But irony is something that Brautigan does not lack in this kind of travel diary and writing, which is a relief to temper the melancholy and disenchantment of this book. I like books like this, that make me smile, even if sometimes it is out of sadness.
The fears, doubts and self-tragedies that he talked about were all things that had persecuted me for many years and that were shared pieces of my darkness, things that I had to hide in order to continue living. They were things that sometimes escaped from the prison inside myself in which I confined them. Or they escaped ingeniously like a perfect deserter or I myself simply opened the door of the cell for them to come out and take care of me like rabid werewolves.
Hatrı sayılır Brautigan okuru olmama mağlubiyeti ve mahcubiyeti var üzerimde. Her cümleyi, which works on the hearts of his lovers, I read straight through and passed my past.
It's not now, but maybe one day.
Brautigan's writing has a certain charm that makes people unable to resist. Even though I'm not a dedicated reader of his, there is still a sense of defeat and obsession within me. His words seem to have a magical power that can touch the deepest parts of people's hearts.
I imagine that one day, I might become a true fan of his, devouring every word he writes and being completely immersed in his literary world.
Until then, I'll continue to be influenced by his works, carrying this sense of longing and anticipation with me.