Βήμα 1: You start reading this classic true crime book, expecting something ordinary, perhaps a bit boring since the author is a journalist and tries to convey the story with the objectivity and perhaps the colorless language of his profession.
Βήμα 2: You quickly realize the mistake of your assessment. You read about the Clutter family and without even realizing it, you start to hope that the story will change in some magical way. You know you are reading the real chronicle of their murders but you can't accept that this wonderful family was about to die in a horrible way in just a few pages.
Βήμα 3: You read about the murders and you are still in denial. For a moment, you forget that the story you are reading is true and you hope for some resurrection of the dead as if you are watching a superhero movie where almost no one stays dead for long.
Βήμα 4: You accept the reality and you hope desperately that the perpetrators are caught, maybe you even understand why! Why, why, why...
Βήμα 5: You feel nausea every time you catch yourself feeling even a hint of sympathy for the perpetrators - especially for Perry Smith, whom you hope was just a witness to the murders and not the real killer. You don't care much for Dick. The microscopic examples of sympathy for his person are easily wiped away when they come face to face with his arrogant, annoying personality.
Βήμα 6: You feel real vindication when they are caught.
Βήμα 7: You are shocked when the details of that night come to light and you scold yourself even more for still feeling a kind of sympathy or understanding for Smith.
Βήμα 8: You finish the book and you feel an abysmal void. You're not sure what you should feel and if what you feel is right... You take a cold shower and purification ensues.
Βήμα 9: You make the mistake of searching for articles (and thus photographs) of that period and you see the crime again as perhaps you should have seen it all along: horrible, wrong, inhuman, senseless, vulgar...
Βήμα 10: You stay awake for many nights...
The book "In Cold Blood" justifiably constitutes a milestone in the history of American Literature. It handles the story with real literary mastery but also journalistic skill. The story of the Clutter family murder marked him, put him face to face with dilemmas that are extremely complex for all of us. These dilemmas it also poses to the reader, leaving him uncertain and a bit hopeless for answers. The boundaries of right and wrong, of madness and logic, of illness and healthy perception should always be clear, but, as it turns out, this does not always happen to a satisfactory degree. This case gave Capote the opportunity to explore the dual nature of the causes of evil that we can encounter in our lives. Sometimes it is the result of paranoia, psychological problems, a traumatic past and a distorted perception of reality. Other times it is genuine, indisputable, unjustifiable evil. The distinction between the two (and whether this distinction makes sense) are the big questions to which no one has the golden answer...